those days.

am i the reason for your endless sorrows?

no one really seems to care for me. Whenever i look around, my friends that are sad will always have someone to back them up. They will receive all the attention, care and love. what about me?

well i don't blame them. i don't show my sadness.
its really lonely tho.


Will you listen to my story? How can i explain all of this?  Whatever that happened, i never meant to hurt you. why would i want to cause u so much pain? Will you believe me if i said i'm sorry, will you stay and never leave? If i could undo all the wrong i did, trust me i would. Bring it my grave i would.  All the promises we made, all vanished one by one, all the same.

being happy has never been this tough.

failure

Oh, in this life
I've been a failure
Trying to find my own way home
How many lies
And how many saviors
Must I go on chasing 'til I let them go

So take all of me, all of my heart
I'm coming to see it's falling apart
And take all of me, all that I've got
When You are the reason
I can live like I'm starting again

Yea, I'm starting again
Whoa, I'm starting again
yea, I'm starting again

So this time
I'm walking off the edge of the road
Onto a path I've loathed before
It's coming to me slowly
I'm pretty sure the only
Obstacle is letting it go

So take all of me, all of my heart
I'm coming to see You're what's holding me up
And take all of me, all that I've got
When You are the reason
I can live like I'm starting again

Oh, I believe that all I need is You to capture me
Oh, I believe that all I need is You, is You

Sometimes i feel like i'm not appreciated. Hmmm you seem to take all the credit. If i didn't gave you my support to let you go ahead with whatever you wanted to do, and mind you, whatever you started, you did it halfway. I'm always the one cleaning up the mess you made. But you get all the credit. Wtf? Maybe because you suck up to the teachers alot and you portray yourself as a very humble and responsible person. Haha but they don't see your other side of you. I could have spoiled your reputation but you are my friend, so i shall not do it. The least you could do is to stop taking the credit for everything and being all fake.

Well this particular teacher hardly knows about you, and what she knows about you, is whatever you made up.

Fuck everything man. I'm so angsty nowadays & theres so much anger in me. I don't want to let it out because i don't wanna accidentally say things that i don't mean and also because i should be the better man.
However, i can't help but feel like all of this is unfair. It really isn't.
I'm so annoyed.

Fuck everything, seriously. This is unfair.