To my dearest

The first time I looked in your eyes I knew
I would do anything for you
the first time you touched my face I felt
what I never felt with anyone else.
I want to give back what you've given to me
I want to witness all of your dreams
now what you've shown me who I really am
I wanna be more than just your man

I wanna be the wind the fills your sails
be the hand the lifts your veil
be the moon that moves your tide
and sun coming up in your eyes
be the wheel that never rusts
be the spark that lights you up
all that you've been dreaming of and more
soo much more
I wanna be your everything.

When you wake up, I'll be the first thing you see
and when it get's dark you can reach out to me
I'll cherish your worries I'll finish your thoughts
I'll be your compass baby, when you get lost.

be the wind the fills your sails
be the hand the lifts your veil
be the moon that moves your tide
and sun coming up in your eyes
be the wheel that never rusts
be the spark that lights you up
all that you've been dreaming of and more
soo much more
I wanna be your everything.

be the wheel that never rusts
be the spark that lights you up
all that you've been dreaming of and more
soo much more
I wanna be your everything.

cheer up, i'm here. always. all ways.

http://www.sixbillionsecrets.com/Illustrated+Secrets/It-Can-Only-Go-So-Far/1910195
my first ever post.

I cannot hold this anymore
my hands are tired of only waiting to let go
and I am waiting still
I used to know which way to turn
you were a light inside a tunnel in my head
I try to follow still

its hard to see you we are older now
and when I find you you just turn around
this is a black and white of you I found
I hang you up and then I pull you down

no more apologies from me
my arms are tired of picking up what I put down
you're all I think of still
I'm gonna miss you every day
I turn my back on anyone who won't believe
and it gets lonely still

its hard to see you we are older now
and when I find you you just turn around
this is a black and white of you I found
I hang you up and then I pull you down

I get lost sometimes
another year flies by
but I know if I try
memories of the light in your eyes
can take me back in time

its hard to see you we are older now
and when I find you you just turn around
this is a black and white of you I found
I hang you up and then I pull you down

I don't hear music anymore
my ears are tired of all the pictures in the words
you are in them still

quite confused with what i want in life recently. But i've been trying to keep a positive mindset and it seems to be working. I'm less sad now but sometimes... hahahais. 

Here I am, here I stand
I stand amazed
Your beauty has surrounded me
It has beckoned me to be who You
Say that I am
You make everything new

If I could run and fall into Your arms
And lay before all I have in store
Then I would

Now I stand, now I live
I live for you
The beauty of the cross and love
It has beckoned me to be who You
Say that I am
You make everything new

If I could run and fall into Your arms
And lay before all I have in store
Then I would

The day will come
The day is soon when I see You
All glory shown
All power loose
When I see You

Now I will run and fall into Your arms
And lay before all I have in store
Yes I will\\\










all i have is lost.

those days.

am i the reason for your endless sorrows?

no one really seems to care for me. Whenever i look around, my friends that are sad will always have someone to back them up. They will receive all the attention, care and love. what about me?

well i don't blame them. i don't show my sadness.
its really lonely tho.


Will you listen to my story? How can i explain all of this?  Whatever that happened, i never meant to hurt you. why would i want to cause u so much pain? Will you believe me if i said i'm sorry, will you stay and never leave? If i could undo all the wrong i did, trust me i would. Bring it my grave i would.  All the promises we made, all vanished one by one, all the same.

being happy has never been this tough.

failure

Oh, in this life
I've been a failure
Trying to find my own way home
How many lies
And how many saviors
Must I go on chasing 'til I let them go

So take all of me, all of my heart
I'm coming to see it's falling apart
And take all of me, all that I've got
When You are the reason
I can live like I'm starting again

Yea, I'm starting again
Whoa, I'm starting again
yea, I'm starting again

So this time
I'm walking off the edge of the road
Onto a path I've loathed before
It's coming to me slowly
I'm pretty sure the only
Obstacle is letting it go

So take all of me, all of my heart
I'm coming to see You're what's holding me up
And take all of me, all that I've got
When You are the reason
I can live like I'm starting again

Oh, I believe that all I need is You to capture me
Oh, I believe that all I need is You, is You

Sometimes i feel like i'm not appreciated. Hmmm you seem to take all the credit. If i didn't gave you my support to let you go ahead with whatever you wanted to do, and mind you, whatever you started, you did it halfway. I'm always the one cleaning up the mess you made. But you get all the credit. Wtf? Maybe because you suck up to the teachers alot and you portray yourself as a very humble and responsible person. Haha but they don't see your other side of you. I could have spoiled your reputation but you are my friend, so i shall not do it. The least you could do is to stop taking the credit for everything and being all fake.

Well this particular teacher hardly knows about you, and what she knows about you, is whatever you made up.

Fuck everything man. I'm so angsty nowadays & theres so much anger in me. I don't want to let it out because i don't wanna accidentally say things that i don't mean and also because i should be the better man.
However, i can't help but feel like all of this is unfair. It really isn't.
I'm so annoyed.

Fuck everything, seriously. This is unfair.